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What I love about the idea of a cleanse is the promise of rebirth. What I hate about a cleanse is that I seem constitutionally incapable of completing one. After watching Tom go on a food-based cleanse in early January, I felt bitter. Did he think he was better than me? He isn’t better than me, I muttered to myself. But how to know for sure, unless I completed my own cleanse?

I’d done a cleanse twice before, and failed. How to guarantee success this time around?  I looked inward, hard. I don’t fail at things often, but that is only because I don’t do things that I think I might fail at. My yoga teachers might tell you that’s why I fail to progress. What was getting in the way of my cleansing success? I could think of two hurdles right off the bat. The first was the sheer duration of a cleanse. I felt that I could not help but succeed, if I could somehow cut down on the length of time to completion. The second hurdle was my utter lack of willpower when it comes to food. Forced to make my own liquid meals in a house full of food, there was no chance I’d make it. I’d need to avoid my kitchen altogether.


So that’s how I chose a three-day juice cleanse. I remembered that long ago, my friend Kim had extolled the virtues of the juices at Portland Juice Press—in particular, a milkshake-like drink that came at the end of each day’s ration of juices. I researched the company online. Six juices a day, for three days? With daily delivery to my house? How hard could that be?

A three day juice cleanse, it turns out, can be very hard. In my baseless optimism and stupidity, I got so excited that I found eight friends to do it with me, including Tom, and scored a group discount. I’m pretty sure it was Gandhi that said, “Why fail alone when you can fail with a bunch of other people?”

The first day’s juices arrived on Tuesday morning at 7:30. I’m a sucker for good packaging and my six bottles of juices were adorable, colorful, and delicious. They felt like collectibles. The first drink of the day, the Shauca, was a grapefruit/ginger/mint combo that woke me up and kept me buzzing until juice number two, the Guru, a magenta beet-based concoction. So far, I wasn’t hungry. In fact, I was very full, from all the liquid. I’m not a good water drinker, and I could see straight off that the biggest issue with the juice cleanse would be the sheer volume of liquid. I peed probably 18 times that first day. I felt light. I felt energetic. I felt purified.


Juice at work was a cinch. When I got home, though, I had to cook for my kids. I heated up a pan to cook their flank steak, and felt an alarming quantity of drool begin to pool in my mouth. I looked around the kitchen in a panic. I spotted a jar of raw almonds and ate eight. I felt like a cheater, but better the eight almonds than a raw flank steak eaten with my hands, I told myself. While my kids ate their dinner, I sipped on hot water, and thought about the Om sitting in my refrigerator.

The Om is Portland Juice Press’s raison d’etre. It’s hazelnut milk with a healthy dose of cinnamon and dates, and on a normal diet you’d probably reject it as hippie food, but what an Om tastes like after a day of fruit juice is a Cheesecake Factory cheesecake. I sipped on it to make it last longer, and then went straight to bed after a hunger-induced argument with Tom that went like this:

Tom: “You ate almonds?  Ha, you lose.”

Yoona: “You think you’re better than me?  You drank COFFEE.”

The next day, I woke up feeling alert. I ran to the mirror and was bummed to find that I was not visibly thinner after 24 hours of liquid food. I shook off my disappointment and ran downstairs to rip open my next box of juices. I drank three more juices at work and even got through a kid’s birthday party in the afternoon without eating. It helped that two other parents at the party were cleansing. We stared at our kids’ pizzas and bonded over our shared hunger.


On the second day, my friends and I were in various stages of falling apart. I was highly irritable. People kept asking me why I was doing a cleanse, and I couldn’t remember. Anytime anyone talked to me, I wanted to scream, “Get off my back, OK?!?” Whitney reported headaches and fatigue, and that she had to lay down between clients. Tom called me around 2:00 to yell “THIS IS BULLSHIT!!” and then hung up the phone. Ethan texted me angrily at 7:30 PM that Linds had the gall to make popcorn when he couldn’t have any. Too weak for his Insanity workout, Erskine went to bed at 9:00 PM bundled up in a down jacket. Kathryn also reported feeling cold. Now that they mentioned it, I realized that I was freezing too. I googled it while nursing my second Om. Lowered metabolism while cleansing can make you feel cold, and lead to flu-like symptoms. My teeth chattered in excitement. My cleanse was working!!

Day 3 dawned clear. I dutifully sucked down my day of juices until I got to 5:00 PM. On the calendar was a law firm party. As any lawyer knows, it is impossible to get through a law firm party without alcohol or snacks. I’d never done it before. I’d never even heard of it HAPPENING. Could I do it now? As I pulled on my fancy clothes in my office bathroom, I realized my pants fit looser. Hot diggity! I high-fived my reflection and told myself I could finish the cleanse. After all, I only had 12 more hours to go before I could have food.

Tom and I both got through the party without food or drink. We weren’t even hungry. But it was after the party that we realized that life without food just isn’t that much fun. We had a sitter but nowhere to go, since we weren’t eating. So we decided to own our failure and fall off the cleanse together. We went to a Japanese place and went nuts. When I took my first bite of seaweed salad, the right side of my jaw clicked and felt strange from disuse.

Afterward, of course, I felt remorseful. I couldn’t even complete a three-day juice cleanse! What a loser I was. But then I realized that even my partial juice cleanse had been beneficial. It had reminded me that in my everyday life, I am surrounded by bounty, by choice. And not having that for 2.75 days had reminded me how delicious food is, how fortunate I was to have it, and how lucky I was to be able to turn it down for the sake of a body experiment.

I think I’ll try the four-day cleanse next time.

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  1. It is sure impressive to read about such experiments with your bodies! Thanks for sharing. I’ve done plenty of cleansing on Aloe juice myself while working for Forever Living Products company. I believe Gandhi fasted for days on Aloe. But for me personally I can fast as long as it takes as long as God is at the center of it. I can’t imagine doing it on my own with juice or without. When I was a missionary in Moscow my friend and I fasted for 2 weeks without any food, the temperature outside was below 30 C most days. I can’t even think doing something like that on my own strengths. Jesus had fasted 40 days without swearing or falling into temptation from Satan. That is impossible for most humans. I’ve met a few who copied this fast. The experience was just awful. To fast and preserve who you really are at the same time is very supernatural. This takes God’s strength. I’m convinced.

    February 13, 2013
  2. When I used to juice fast it came in a box with bottles (this is like century ago). The first day’s bottle was sauerkraut juice. I kid you not. Could anything be grosser? Then it was six days of a V-8 like juice. Since then I can’t even look at a can of V-8 without feeling nauseous. I might give three days a go if I could have yummy juice…..or not! And you are completely correct that not eating is the most anti-social of behaviors. Love this post!

    February 5, 2013
  3. kdub #

    i never comment on blogs…i’m usually just a voyeur…a perv i guess…but i started my fast yesterday. first off, i never call the shit a cleanse…PLEASE…cleansing is for hippies…i fast twice a year for eleven days to cut that tire from my fat-ass. my daughter hates me around day three and my husband hates me around day one because I AM BETTER THAN HIM! i have the will power of a giant! i look food in the eye and laugh at her! my problem is the weed. food can go fuck itself…but NO WEED! are you fucking kidding me? i have a daughter and a husband! i smoke like most people drink. NO WEED! and it’s not even the munchies…that’s all in your head…it’s the beautiful relaxed feeling of that godly essence filling me up after i do all the real work the attorney i work for doesn’t do. i also don’t buy any fancy ass juice to fast with…water, lemons, a bit o cayenne and a touch of the maple….after day 6 you feel so fucking superior to practically everyone around….”electronically file that shit yourself yo!”…he didn’t really hear that….i still have my job.

    all the best on your next cleanse.

    i really enjoy your blog. i tried hemming all my pants 1.5 inches above my ankles….but i ended up looking like the poor detroiter i use to look like…i don’t mind…but i don’t have any pants left!

    February 5, 2013

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